"Michael" I said through the door of the treatment room, "You don't think an accupuncture needle could have pierced my implant do you?" LOL!!!! I had an accupuncture appt. today, and all of a sudden, I felt this fire build up in my body - surging, and building to great intensity. I've had similar feelings during treatments before - but never even close to this intensity - so it made me a little nervous!!! He tried not to laugh at me, I'm sure. He said that my body is already working overtime for healing, and with the accupuncture needles in place, I went into turbo charged healing! Wow - what an amazing feeling! After I got over my initial reaction - I found it quite funny - but just for a minute.....I had a mini panic attack!!!! Hey - all kinds of new experiences here - You just never know what's going to happen on any given day!
I was talking to Bob yesterday trying to figure out what my place is in this whole BC thing. While I admire all the women who have had BC who do all the walks and all the pink ribbon things. I can't see myself as a big pink ribbon waver. But I do think that women are really good at helping other women - at sharing their stories for those who follow them, and I think that's a good thing. Marty (my pastor) said yesterday I should write a book. I told her, unfortunately, my story is not at all unique. 1 women in 8 gets breast cancer - and all the stories have been written. So what could I do to carry the torch of responsibility? What could my my contribution be? What could I possibly offer that hasn't been done? Well sitting with Michael today it came to me that I'd love to start an organization that helped women get alternative and complimentary medical treatment when they can't afford it. I know in my heart of hearts, that if I could afford the amount of alternative treatments that would take the place of chemo, that I wouldn't do chemo. But even though the cost of that would be less then what chemotherapy costs, becuse it's not covered by insurance, I cannot afford 2 or more treatments a week for an extended period of time. I'm still concerned with being able to afford one treatment every week, which will be necessary during chemo just to handle the side effects.We wonder why we don't have more statistics about the benefits of alternative therapies - but that's why - because the average person cannot afford to pay for it without benefit of insurance coverage. That said, I don't have the time resources to get a foundation like that off the ground either, so that will remain a dream. If God wants me to leave a breast cancer legacy - I guess He'll either have to give me another idea, or drop a great big benefactor in my lap!!! Any takers?
In my next post, I'll share my daughter-in-law's story. I'm so proud of her and her BC legacy. She and her Mom have worked for several years toward BC awareness. Her book "Lump" is a great viewpoint from a young woman with BC. Stay tuned....
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