Practicing

I didn't feel all that well today - just feel like I'm fighting a bug. Still have swollen glands, and just draggin a bit. So I laid low today. I'm supposed to go into work tomorrow to send out the Yearbooks, but we'll see how I feel. I am a lot more mindful to taking care of myself. I talked to a friend who just went back to work, and she's pretty tired. It ocurred to me that the reason I've been feeling so well is that I haven't tried to run back and forth to work. I think that was really good for me. Hopefully, I'll be able to fight this bug and stay healthy enough to begin chemo. It also ocurred to me that because I've felt pretty good - I just went right back to normal again. If what I believe about cancer is true, that it's meant to be transformational, I'm not doing very well. What have I done to decrease stress and increase joy? Not much. Certainly this was a wake up call to make each day count, and if I spend each day just taking care of business, just like before, then what have I gained. So tomorrow, I'm going to try to be more aware.  I'm approaching chemo doctors by saying I'm willing to make a lot of changes on my end, and to work hard on alternative methods of healing - but I'd better get back to practicing what I preach.