Namaste

So today was my first day of taking the Essaic Tea. Believe it or not, I couldn't get the cap off the jar, so I had to wait until Bob got it off for me!!! Even Kysta couldn't get it off! It was quite tolerable - almost just like regular tea, and you only drink 4 oz.  After reviewing all the many options I have in terms of alternative treatments for preventing cancer return, I'm thinking that it's just too difficult to choose which options are best for me. I was looking for a new general practitioner, so now I'm going to seek out a holistic GP that can help me to determine where best to put my efforts. Iwill always do qigong, accupuncture and meditation. That is a no brainer. I still believe that energy and spirit are the prime elements of health. But in terms of diet and supplements, etc. I think I need outside help. the more research I do - the more things you can't eat - the more products you can't use, etc. While I'm certain that a majority of the products we use today have toxic elements to them, and that we all need to drive the marketplace to make safer products by purchasing safer products, I'm not interested in living in a bubble any more than I am interested in living with the side effects of chemo for the rest of my life. I want to live joyously, but consciously.

In this month of Thanksgiving, I see that many on fb are saying each day what they are thankful for. I have to say, I am so filled with gratitude. And strangely, I have been through this whole ordeal, even when I wasn't sure how it would turn out. When you know you can get through a crisis like this, and still remain in the space of love rather than fear, then what more could you ask for? Well.....ok, so I still want to take that trip to Tuscany, and the expense of this crisis may have challenged that, but I am even more determined to do those things I'v always wanted to do. Not because I might die sooner, but because I think it's so important to live each day to the fullest....to embrace every opportunity for joy. So to all of you who are reading this - I tell you how sincerely grateful I am that you care enough about me to read this journal from time to time. You have blessed my life. I believe that my work in this lifetime is not to be done alone. I have always felt that all my lessons, my great triumphs, and my blessings have come in community with others. So you are a part of my journey, and I thank you for whatever part you play. Namaste (I see the God in you)